Been awhile....

  So, as most people have noticed, I haven't updated my blog in awhile. No really good excuse, my laptop was dead, and I found the cord packed away in a box, that I forgotten had existed. Yeah, I found it!!

  June: Stacey and Echo were in Pocatello, and Grandma and I had decided to go up for  a couple of days.
  While we were there, we all decided to go swimming at Lava Hot Springs. We got there, got in the water. Coda and I went up to the slide that goes over the road. I remember thinking, "wow, this is higher than the tallest diving board, if I can go on this, I can go on the diving board." I screamed all the way down. Coda had a big smile on his face. He decided to go on the other. I was talking to Echo, and convinced myself I could go off the highest platfoarm, it's not that high. I got to the first platform, looked at Echo, and she pointed up. I continued to climb.

  Got to the top, and looked down. Crap, it was higher than I thought. I remember thinking "What's the worst that could happen?" The lifeguard had given me the signal, and I jumped off. My heart jumped into my throat, and I thought, Oh, crap this was not a wise decision. I landed in the water, and felt immediate pain in my back. I got to the surface, and could barely swim because of the pain. I yelled to the lifeguard for help. I said help 2 times, before he realized I was in trouble.
  Funny thing: Echo and I had laughed earlier, thinking the lifeguard didn't look more than 15, and not much muscle. He didn't look like he could do much.

  I was wrong, he saved me. He blew his whistle and jumped in the water. He swam over to me, and told me to relax and he would help me. I told him if he could get me to water where I could touch, I would be fine. We got to the edge of the water, and my mom was right there. Apparently Echo and found my mom and told her it was because it was me. I remember telling them I needed to stand up because I was going to throw up. I was trembling so hard, I couldn't talk. Mom kept asking where I hurt, but I could answer. The only thing I could say, was I am going to throw up.

 They wanted to call an ambulance. I refused. I didn't want to pay the price for them to come pick me up. I would be fine. Then they insisted they take me out on a backboard. I tried everything I could do to get out of that. I said to give me a few minutes, and I would be fine. I went out on a backboard, and now everyone knew how much I weighed.

  They took me to the first aid room. They asked me some questions, and I answered. They asked me if I had signed the waiver. What waiver? Oh, I was supposed to sign a waiver if I went on the platforms. Huh. I would sign it then, if they needed me to. I hadn't planned on getting any gumption to go off any platform, there for I didn't sign one.

 They kept on asking if I wanted to go to the hospital. No, I was fine. THEN, they asked me to sit up. Nope, not going to happen the way they wanted me to. Took me about 3 minutes, when I convinced myself to sit up. Oh My Heck, that was painful. Everything hurt. Standing up, walking, that was going to take a minute. Stacey walked in with Tayden. He looked so scared. I assured him I was fine, I think he gave me a hug and then they left.

  I was able to walk out on my own. They gave me an ice pack, and I went and laid down on our blanket. I was advised to go to the hospital. I didn't. I went into the water later, and it took pressure of my backside. It felt Great!

 I was supposed to be driving back to Utah the next morning because I had to work the next day. As I was contemplating on where to sleep that night, Grandma offered up her air mattress and she would sleep on the couch next to me. I sat down, and almost cried. I couldn't sit or lay down. Trying to get in the middle of the mattress was the most excrutating pain I have ever been in. Mom touched my back to wipe off some of the icy hot, and I almost came out of my skin. Mom felt so bad. Didn't sleep much that night, got up in the morning, realized I wouldn't be driving, and called in to work.

  I finally went to the doctor about 1 1/2 week after it happened. Took x-rays. They told me I had a bruised tailbone, but not broken. I would be in pain for awhile.

  I am still in pain. Can't sit for over an hour, without my butt feeling like it will fall off. My back and backside hurt almost everyday, but it is slowing getting better.

  Lesson learned: I am not young anymore. I don't heal quickly. I have done something I had always wanted to do, but it will NEVER happen again. I still have a sick feeling when I think about what I did. If you have to convince yourself to do something, it is probably not worth it.m The Lord blessed me that day. He blessed me in the way of letting me walk to the car to go home and not feel as much pain until I got home. He blessed me with a great family who cares about well being. He blessed me with family members who I was able to make laugh as I retold what happened.